By looking at my entree titles you can tell I'm pretty moody. Which I hate. I've resolved a few things in the past few weeks. Which is awesome. I told y'all I'd grow up. So maybe this means I can finally gain some emotional stability.

My friends might actually not hate me. Well....I recant that. I printed out my script the other day and everyone said it sucked which was a stab to my heart and I can't even say it was constructive. They just went around calling me stupid. So...yeah...but they might not hate me. They buy me food and shit. ^^

I want us to have a stronger bond but then again there's that one chick that just has this bad aura about her. Everyone told me to stop talking to her but I felt bad for ignoring her. Yet and still she ignores me and even talks to the people I introduce her to. I don't get what I did wrong... My closer friend says she's closer to her than she is to me because they're farther apart. Isn't that weird? I'll figure out something. Maybe it's because I'm black or something.

I'm really tired and it's only 9pm. Tomorrow's my last day before Thanksgiving Break and I'm supposed to be going downtown on Wednesday with that one dude as well as the zoo. Even though I'm pretty bummed my school friends aren't taking me anywhere (they said they might), it makes me smile to think that I'll get to see that one dude again and again. You never know which time might be the last time you can see a person. And to be honest, I don't want anyone else to tag alone. Call me selfish, but it's the way it is...

I turned down an opportunity to go to Chicago with my mom just because she's crazy and ruined last Christmas with here insanity. I was not gonna be stuck in Chicago with her attitude. Plus, I kinda want to stay close to my father. He'd be paying for the whole thing and just for us to spend Christmas without him. I'd understand if mom were paying for herself but my dad'd be paying for everything. My mom is still apparenlty gonna stay here which kinda sucks but it happens.

I'm not progressing with my relationships a lot but I'm trying.

I'm really tired...so night until I feel the cause for inspiration.